So I'm sure you thought it was Jayme about to write this post, and you were all, "Oh, you just had a baby a month ago!" But no, it's not Jayme. She's already back to pre-prego weight...maybe even less. It's me, Amanda, just 4 days away from Aurora's first birthday and wondering why those pounds didn't just "melt off."
I breastfed for six months. I exercise (not as regularly as I'd like). I wasn't eating great--I was eating for comfort and convenience, which is really all a new mom can do until you figure out how to make a dinner with vegetables and lean meats and take care of feeding a child at the same time.
I started Weight Watchers a little before Thanksgiving. The weight loss was steady at first. Then, I had a pretty icky holiday gain. Then it's been up and down, in little increments. I feel like I'm in pudge purgatory. It's too cold to motivate me to do the exercise I want to do (jogging, biking, longer walks). But slow is better than nothing, I guess. I am down 13 pounds as of Sunday. The slowest 13 pounds ever. My initial goal was to lose 19 pounds by this birthday (and my own 29th birthday next week), but I'll be happy with 15.
I know I've made progress based on my clothes. I can wear some pre-pregnancy jeans and fit into things I couldn't. I am trying to look at these photos and see the progress, but I'm blind to my own body (I thought I looked "okay" 15 pounds ago)...can you see a difference (besides the obvious haircut)?
I still have a long way to go. I haven't talked a lot about it with anyone because...it's kind of embarrassing. Embarrassing to say I let myself go. Embarrassing not being able to eat or wear whatever I want. I believe women of all shapes and sizes are beautiful, but for me, my body and self are not comfortable where I am. So I work...and look to y'all to encourage and hold me accountable! Hopefully, my struggles can motivate you to stick with those goals you have for your physical health post-baby as well.
Thanks for listening,