Sunday, May 22, 2011

Mama Guilt, Mama Goals

I am so thankful that I have the opportunity to be a stay-at-home-mom.  I love being able to spend every second of the day with my little Lyla.  Though lately there’s been this little bit of guilt creeping up on me.  I mean…I feel like I have the hardest job in the world (taking care of another human being, 24/7), but I know from the outside some people think it’s all fun and games… the whole “you get to hang out at home all day!” mentality.  So the guilt is kind of me projecting on myself what I feel like others are thinking.  Yes it is amazing being at home all day with my baby…but it is also the hardest job I have ever taken on.   And yet I still feel like I want to do more (Darn you, inner over-achiever!).
This weekend I decided I need to set some goals for myself to help me feel a sense of accomplishment throughout the week (and hopefully push aside this pesky guilt).  I flipped through cookbooks to plan ahead new/interesting meals for the week.  I made a list of things I want to clean/organize each day.  And my next task is to try to get on more of a work schedule for Miskabelle/Miskabelly etsy stuff and blog posts. Because while the idea of living a life free of restrictions and plans set in stone seems like bliss…I think it’s human nature to want a little bit of structure.  This way we can celebrate our small daily successes—even if that just means making sure the toilet gets scrubbed every Wednesday.



Rici said...

I envy you but I don't envy you at the same time. I would love nothing more then to be a stay at home mom with Teagan (and eventually, Baby Bear) but I don't think I have the self-discipline to do it. As much as I complain about my job, etc. I need structure to function. Good job on providing yourself with some self-made structure time. Keep going, Mama! You're doing great!

Krissy @ B.Inspired said...

I completely understand how you feel! I go through cycles, though. I will feel really comfortable with our chaotic stay-at-home days for awhile and then go crazy trying to structure it other times. Whatever works at the time is what I do. And as the kiddos grow, my feelings change, too. Keep up the good work. You're not alone, mama!