It's no secret that motherhood changes you. Aurora has completely turned my world around. I want to be a better person for her. I want her to have someone to look up to.
It's also no secret to anyone in my life that I went through a rough patch where I was trying to "figure out who I am," and this included: getting a divorce, dating a string of people who were really unkind to me, going out a LOT, getting my lip pierced, trying to be in a band (yeah, I know), and allowing people to use me and my talents just because I was afraid of being alone. Phew. Yikes.
Then, I got pregnant. And I fell in love with Q. (Yes, in that order.) And since then, nothing has been the same--and nothing will be again. I am secure in who I am, as a mom, wife, and woman. I know I'm funny, fun, creative, and talented, and I only open my heart to people who want to know me without strings attached. I've become a good judge of character upon first meeting someone.
I've gained a few pounds from pregnancy and stress, changed hairstyles a few times, taken out my lip ring, and evolved my style just a bit (admittedly mostly due to the weight gain/body change--dressing curves can be a challenge!). I feel peaceful in the midst of a very chaotic life. And I'm so thankful.
I still have three tattoos, and am planning at least two more...and sometimes I miss the lip ring because it made me feel badass and invincible...but then I realize how much more badass and invincible I feel being a mother.